Hey guys...

[Love~{HAITUS}]

Dear Members and Staff of SML,

Im having a really tough time, with me going to school in germany away from my family and my sister going to College in Munich. I am rather depressed, sadly I have started a lot of bad habits like smoking and occasional cutting.

It would be nice to have your support, I just learned that my brother and dad were shipped off to guard the Georgian borders and my mom is mad at me, because I'm currently dating a german girl whom I go to school with. But its really tough, 'cause I haven't had any family contact with anyone but my sister whom my mom is also mad at 'cause she's ingaged with a girl that has been her friend since she was very little, so if you guys could log on more and help out and advertise it would be nice if we got more people
Im telling you this because I may not be on as often as I normally am.

~Lovely.

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[Sasha]

Holyholyholy, oh man, Love. D; That's some bad shit you're getting into. :C
In my opinion, cutting is worse than smoking. Smoking is just bad, yeah, but. Y'know.
I've almost cut before, I got the the stage with the blade in my hand. I was so close, but something made me stop. Something made me angry. Instead, I went and took a 1500 in the pool. Try boxing, even, beat up a punching bag. Maybe it's just because I've got fifteenmillion things going on in my head at a time so's it's easy to do things like that for me, but I've heard it worked for other people I suggested it to. Don't hurt to try. </3

Your mother's ticked because you are dating a girl rather than a guy, I'm guessin'? How long's she known?
I can't tell you much about how to deal with your mother's anger, but I know one thing: she is still your mother. I highly doubt she'll do anything rash. Y'know how it is, parents in general have ideas for their children for when they grow up, usually involving their "daughters getting married to nice sorts of boys." Give her a bit longer, it sucks for that part to blow up in her face. She'll realize that it's unintelligent to be angry about something like that.
As for your father and brother, I'm sorry. :C I can't really say much on that subject, at least not much more. /hug/

I'm not even supposed to be online here during the week, dude, but I'll try to pop on at night right before bed. But I can't stay offline on weekends, this shit's like some sort of addiction for me.

I can't say much, really, I don't have to deal with the same sort of stuff you do. I haven't even gone to a different country without my family, just across the US. Even then, I dunno. I was with teachers who I felt a sort of family-like love for, so I wasn't in the same boat as you. At all.
But, what I can do for you is be a reading eye. Don't even PAUSE to think if you start PMing me with some rant or something. Unless, well, it's too personal. Even if your views are completely off at the time, it's best to get it off your chest, yeah?
But I've gone through stages of depression, and while it's different for everyone...eh. Y'know.

Good luck to your future, bud. I don't know you well as I'd like, but I'll bet you'll get through in one piece. <3

[[R] a v e n]

-hugs Love- Would you try to quit at least cutting for us? I've known some people that do that, and Sashies right, you need an output. Make a character on here that beats up everyone, learn kickboxing, Write. That's what I do, write a story about your life. Cry, it helps let out the pressure, I don't see crying as a weakness, it is a strength. You are a strong person if you cry in my eyes. I haven't been depressed enough to cut, but I have been so low that I hate myself and say horrible things I don't even mean. PM Sashie or I if you need to talk, I'm known in my friend circle for being the shoulder to lean on, even in my family. I've had to deal with my moms slight stage of depression when my dad left us, I can lend a shoulder. ^^ As for you dating a girl instead of a guy and your mom? I'm totally cool about that, one of my best friends has a girlfriend, and even when her parents get mad at them I'm just thinking/saying. 'You know what? Everyone is entitled to their own way of thinking. What if you didn't trust anyone but a girl? What would you do then?' So I'm supportive of that too.

Just hand in there friend, and if you need to talk, to cry, or to curse it all out, just PM me. ^^ -hugs-


EDIT: I'm making a Venting board, so you can go look at that. It'll be under the general board here.

[Love~{HAITUS}]

Thanks guys... and Raven about the note on the bottom of the Venting board... I haven't sunken to that much of a low... I don't think anyone around my age would or ANYONE around the range of ages here. And yeah I'll try to stop with cutting.

[Sasha]

Good girl Love, I'd hate to see a friend get hurt. :C
'Specially an intelligent girl like you, c'mon. /hughughuggg
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[Love~{HAITUS}]

*Huggles back* thanks again

[[R] a v e n]

I wasn't writting that note about you, I just put that there because I know of a fellow RPer that killed herself....But that's besides the point.

[D.e.a.t.h]

All I can give is hugs, don't really know what to give as advice. So *Hugs lovely*.